The calendar clicked over, and we are officially in a new year. The December 31 – January 1 year change is sort of artificial, since it isn’t related to any astronomical event, and usually I just ignore it. The year should change at the spring equinox, as it did under the Julian calendar and for millenia before that. If anyone is curious about the change, please look it up and let me know.
But I’m just as happy to be out of 2009. It was good to watch the milestone fall behind on this journey. 2009 was the year that was horrible. It may be the worst year of my life, and I don’t want to get depressed tallying failures and disasters and catastrophes, so I’m just declaring it now. 2009 – the worst year of my life. (Friends and family, please don’t come in with “But 1990 was really bad, and what about 1982, and 1996 was awful…” I really don’t want to think about it.)
So I’m waving bye-bye to 2009 with a lot of vigour. Good-bye and good riddance!
All my native optimism is surfacing. 2010 is going to be good. I’m not making resolutions, because I can’t keep a long-term resolution. Ask me to do something for a week, a month, six weeks – okay, I can do that. A whole year? The rest of my life? If it isn’t something I really want to do, forget it. I’ll backslide. I fail at diets, for instance. My ordinary diet is pretty healthy; I’m not a fast food aficionado. But to restrict my diet is too much. I want to eat what I want to eat, when I want to eat it. I can fast (restriction of types of food and amount) for Lent or Advent, but to give up wine, butter, coffee or bread forever would put me into a grumpy state from which I might not emerge.
I have goals for the year. Find a parish or mission job. Get the truck back on the road, which is sort of starting over from scratch as far as insurance, licensing and registration are concerned. Straighten out issues around my husband’s pension, medical care and financial concerns. And one of my goals is to do a few things for me, to keep up my morale. For instance, I’ve just ordered some Plain cape dresses from the States, and I’m about to order a new black bonnet. When we are in our own household, I’m going to get furnishings that are something other than 2x4s screwed together. I may even take a short retreat for rest and rejuvenating prayer.
My spiritual goal is to get more rest, to take more quiet time for prayer and study. My other spiritual goal is to focus on the work I do as prayer and a gift to God, whether it is writing this blog, outlining a book I hope to write, or washing dishes and folding clothes. That is part of my personal theology: That the work of our hands and the occupations of our minds are offerings before the Lord. In all that we do we should be mindful of His presence.